Feelin' down again...

I guess it was bound to happen...

...the whole weekend has been a waste of time... I didn't do half of what I wanted to do and I didn't even rest properly. It's late and I'm still up, listening to sad music and moping in my corner. My room is a living junk and I've not found the will to clean it yet. I had three whole days to do and what did I do? NOTHING!

DAMNIT! WHY DO I HAVE TO SUCK SO MUCH!!! ARGH!!! I WILL NEVER BE GOOD AT ANYTHING!! I'm a FREAKING loser! My manager is cool, he did a lot of cool things and he's great at his job. Yeah... I'm doing progresses, he says. Sure. That's all bullshit! He just wants me to feel good. I'm a loser and everyone know it! I can't keep my friends and I can't even keep my body and room clean! Do you know the last time I took a shower? 9 days ago! 9 days! And the dishes? 2 weeks! You would think that would make me want to do anything anything about it, but nooooo! I don't. It just doesn't want to work in my head. I'm a freaking loser. Damn it. Damnit. Fucking life!

Arghhhh!!! Meh... I'm not even gonna bother with the ciao...