Beta, eevee "god" of sleep

*Hug Beta and yawn. Beta is sleeping* Hello, everyone.

Today was my second meeting with Alpha and I had trouble sleeping two days ago, so I figured keeping Beta close to me from now on would be a good idea. Except at work, since that would mean I would fall asleep on the job. Anyway, the meeting with Alpha today was good and bad. Bad because he dug deeper than last time (I thought that wasn't possible, but he did) and I had to stop the meeting so I could recover from the digging. Either way, I am more enlightened than before, even if I was too shaken to tell Alpha. Strange to say, but that guy may be the one to succeed sour me in a proper person after everyone failed in 23 years. Although, he is only the trigger. I have to do most of the work myself and all that. That's what I'm learning. Nothing is coming to me on its own and taking stuff from others to get stuff is not nice and is not the way to proper mental growth. Or something. It made sense when he was saying it. It doesn't matter if I can't explain it again, because I know what I have to do.

Yeah... so... that's what I wanted to say... I... *yawn and lay my head on Beta* ...sleepy... Ciao Beta, Ciao readers and friends...

Alpha and Omega

"Do you really want to ignore the pains that could done to you, because the truth could be scary? Imagine yourself at age 65. Imagine all those years of living in the unknown and the fear, of asking yourself every day if you will live to see tomorrow. Do you have any idea of how sad and horrifying of a life that would be?"

Yes I do. And no, I'm not going to let that happen to me. I won't let the unknown destroy my soul. I will fight! I will know, even if the answer could entrail my demise. I won't hide anymore. Thanks Alpha. You are the best person named after a Greek alphabet letter ever.

Omega: *looks very sad*

Aww... Don't take it like this. You are still the best eevee named after a letter of the Greek alphabet. You're awesome. *pets her*

Omega: *smiles and relaxes* Thanks...

No problem. I feel good tonight. I feel free. But I also feel sleepy. I'm up at 5 tomorrow morning. So, ciao.

Depressi-O: Update

*sigh* Well, I gathered the courage to talk about my depression to my manager. He referred me to an association how mental problems that my company is subscribed to. After a rather difficult phone call, I've got meeting sessions with a professional psycho person, paid by the company, which should help me over a few meetings and the prescription of the appropriate drugs, to make me less mentally deranged. Let's hope this one is the right one. I would love to be free of the heavy dependance to others to find happiness, which coupled with my personality, makes dangerous in bad times.